Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Genuine Sincerity

I have this fear of being seen as a mommy first, as if being one makes me the least interesting person you've met on earth. One can sense my eagerness to answer the question, "How's your baby?". You see, when I was single and I'd get to "chat" with acquaintances who will immediately rave about their child's milestones, chances are I'll be flashing a smile while listening half-heartedly while my mind wonders about something.. err.. more interesting.

Exactly, I'm guilty.

Kaya nga sometimes I wonder when I'm ask about Dani, if she really wanted to know or is she just striking a conversation. I also know this mommy, who when asked about her child, would instantly talk about him non-stop. And I admire her for it pero it would be nice to talk to her about something other than her child hehe Pero I understand her naman because who doesn't love to talk about their child, diba? We're always ever proud mommies. But I sure am glad, I have this blog or Dani's blog for that matter.

Now, where does all of these came from? I am not making much sense.

Lets call her Ms. Marvelous. She doesn't have a child (not sure if by choice or what), late 40s, and she "knows" about parenting through her nieces and nephews (so once in a while i get unsolicited advice from her). One time she asked me, one of the most feared question, "How's Dani?" Previously I gave her short replies like .. "she's ok naman." or "ayun, nasa house taong bahay." I wouldn't expound anymore. However, this time she followed-up with, "Does she know how to count already?" In other times, I wouldn't have thought much about it. But it seems to me there's something in the tone of her voice. Like all of her previous questions flashed back and made me think, why is she asking these questions? Is she really interested? Does she really want to know? Why does she want to know?

I am such a bad judge on sincerity. I used to like everyone. tsk.

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