From deep slumber

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I have awaken.

Romance, True Love, seems to escape me for some time now. I've witnessed two weddings and I feel nothing. Yes well wishes were given as standard greetings but I'm not really happy for them in the sense that I am kilig or giddy. Not that it matters to them, I'm sure they've no care in the world what I think or feel. Full of optimism, they are as they say, in Cloud 9.

I've search through the core of me and neither was Envy the cause of my state. Long have I realized that there's no point comparing anything with others, so skip that. Then it came to me, as clear as spring water, I've been a neglectful partner. I tend to hang on to disappointment and misunderstandings and ended here, lost. I guess, at my end, our marriage from peaks and valleys, has reached it's plateau. That I almost forgot what we once had or where we are headed. Thankfully, I am married to a wonderful man.

And yes a simple pasalubong can do that to me. Bring me back with an optimistic flair, intoxicated with romance and ready to profess yet again my undying love for my husband. Beat that cheesiness, John Lloyd.

Of course it's not just the carrot cake, I'm not that shallow (or materialistic), or maybe I am but I don't want to argue with myself right now so let me just get to my point.

I love you, hubby.

Five years and counting..

** just in case I forget to write something for our anniversary ;)